Sorrow comes like ocean waves
Sorrow comes like ocean waves. It swells up and as one comes crashing in the next is about to unfold…. slowly eroding the edges of my soul.
I sit at the edge and wait for the waves arrival, knowing fully that the next wave could pull me under.
At this very moment I feel NOTHING… just the emptiness that runs deeper then my dreams could have even imagined.
I just want to be filled with anything….
Just let me drown in my sorrows, just let me cry a million tears to fill an ocean, let that ocean be my comfort.
Let the waves come, let them surround me – let them fill me.
Let them take me back to the first time…
Take me back to the first time you held my hand and we walked the beach…
Together hand in hand….
This is for you Dad!
November 11, 2007, I wrote this poem….. I received a phone call the 10th informing me that my dad had passed away suddenly of a massive heart attack… he was only 54 years old.
My relationship with my father was a very difficult one… one that I can honestly say, had grown leaps and bounds in the last 6 years…. we had a saying,
“You just don’t know what this means to me!”
Each time we said that, we did know how much we were truly in love with knowing each other and not taking advantage of what we had….
Life is way too short….. don’t let your love ones slip away without expressing how much you do love them… Mend those fences before it is too late….
God Blessed me with my relationship with my dad…. we learned to forgive and love unconditionally… who he was, it no longer mattered…. it’s what he left in my heart that will live on forever……
No “what if’s” for me… or “I should have”…. I did!! He did!!! and together we did!! We made a wonderful father/daughter relationship that grew beyond our own beliefs! I can not be filled with sorrow no longer…. I now rejoice in the love that we had and I smile knowing that I will see him again!
Thank you Dad for loving me! You just don’t know how much this has meant to me!